Maine Mystery Writer — Snippets page

Maine Mystery Writer — Snippets page.

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Radiation for Breast Cancer

   After chemotherapy and surgery (in my neo-adjuvent therapy for invasive, aggressive breast cancer with 3 tumors in the axilla lymph nodes) we have now moved on to radiation.
    Today was my seventh day (of 35 days) of radiation. After yesterday’s treatment, I noticed swelling under my collar bone. (They are radiating 3 spots: breast, lymph nodes in collar bone area and the axilla lymph nodes ~ all on left side.) I so hoped the swelling would go down over night, but it didn’t. So I called my radiation doctor’s office this morning and talked with his nurse. She told me to come see them this afternoon when I came for my radiation treatment.
    The nurse examined me after today’s treatment. She could see and feel what I was talking about and she found more. She said I was swollen right up over the collar bone and onto my top of shoulder. I had not noticed that. She informed me that my doctor was not in this afternoon, but he wants to see me tomorrow. She said to come in a half hour before my radiation appointment. However, she said, if I develop any pain, more swelling or heat or redness tonight, go directly to the emergency room.
    Personally, I don’t think it is any kind of infection. I am afraid it is what I have been so concerned over ever since I first started in this long journey. I fear it is lymphedema. I fear it will grow worse, with nearly six weeks of radiation to go. I fear it will next affect my arm and hand.
    It is strange how all along I haven’t felt much fear of death, but so fear the lymphedema and its effects.
    Breast cancer is something I never could have imagined myself as having. And the tumors in the lymph nodes under the arm too … Lord, help us.
    The anxiety, the sickness, the weakness, shortness of breath, loss of all bodily hair, loss of a social life, with the dependency on others for basic needs, seeing the fear and pity in loved one’s eyes, losing interest in all those chores, talents, and endeavors of my daily life, so much time spent in bed, in the hospital, so many needles, pills and poisons, a maimed body … A life I never could have imagined having ~ A fight I never would have thought I was strong enough to wage.
    Seems like we just get over one hurdle to find another one we must maneuver. I keep saying ‘we.’ I know I’m the one with the breast cancer. But my husband suffers it right along with me. I am so blessed to have him! And my sister, Mimi. Anyone who has to suffer cancer should be so blessed as I am for these two who have put me first on their priority list for nine months now and still going. They must run on Duracell batteries ~ but no, they are not mechanical. They have warm, loving, unselfish hearts. They are my lifeline!
    That old saying that if God brings you to it, he’ll get you through it ~ well, I don’t know if God brought me to it, but I can assure you, HE’S BRINGING ME THROUGH IT.

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Had My Breast Tattooes Today

Had My Breast Tattooes Today.

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Diarrhea From Chemo is the Bad News Today, But a Breast Cancer Clinical Trail is the Good News!

Diarrhea From Chemo is the Bad News Today, But a Breast Cancer Clinical Trail is the Good News!.

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Cancer sucks. Hope lifts. Faith sustains. Love overcomes all.

Cancer sucks. Hope lifts. Faith sustains. Love overcomes all..

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It’s Now 9 Weeks and 3 Days Since You Left Us

It's Now 9 Weeks and 3 Days Since You Left Us.

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Grieving and Loss

Grieving and Loss.

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Still Energized From Night With Stephen King!

Still Energized From Night With Stephen King!.

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